Thanks guys...

for making me feel better today. I guess I just really needed someone's shoulders to cry on. Even though he broke up with me thursday and we hung out on friday... in between that time, I felt so lonely. I went from feeling empty to sad to empty again. You guys are right... I do need that closure. I need him to tell me straight out if he still wants to make this work or leave entirely. One part of me is scared for the answer but the other part really wants to know where this is going to go. I don't want to be confused any longer. I still do love him though... but what did I expect? haha I mean what was the probability that we were going to be together "forever". The naive, totally-out-of-reality part of me really wanted him to be the one. But let's face it... he is my first. There might be more to come or we might just get back together again. Either way, I'm really glad you guys were here for me tonight... and for many nights to come. I would've gone mad if I stayed home thinking about it by myself. I'm really just happy you guys are here for me. And I will always be here for you guys too.