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haha this is just a response to your post emily c:

I often wonder about that too... the whole staying with someone forever thing. I know there are people out there who likes the rush of falling in love over and over again with different people. But for me, I honestly just want one person. I know I'm young haha. I shouldn't expect my first one to be the one and that there would possibly be many others... but is it silly of me to only want one? To me, I just don't like the thought of falling in love over and over. It just seems so tiring. I think that in a relationship, there will be those boring periods where both people are bored with each other. But I think that's the beauty of relationships. If you both really loved each other, you both would keep trying to make that spark come alive again. I guess being bored with each other is a testament to see how much you really love each other. If you aren't willing to make it work, then you really didn't love that person as much as you say you did.

Those cavecanum secrets really scare me too haha. It seems like there are so many cheaters out there or people who want to end their relationships because they're bored with each other. I read on yahoo just the other day where this reporter interviewed a couple who has been together their whole lives almost haha. I think it was 80+ years. They're both centarians now. The reporter asked them what their secret to staying together for so long is... I don't really remember what they said though LOL. Even though stories like these are really sweet, the cavecanum secrets knock me out of this "together forever" fantasy I have lol.

I'm really glad you see john as the one emily. I don't think it's silly to think that he's the one even though you're so young haha. I can sincerely feel the love you both have. You both are really comfortable with each other and I envy that. When you guys have kids, I'll be sure to teach them many things. ohohohohohohohohohhohohohohho. No but seriously, I'm really happy for you two. Even though there were hardships both of you had to endure, I'm glad both of you pulled through and still love each other unconditionally.

So...

I found my closure guys. I'm happy now haha. I still have a melancholy feeling, but I feel way better than before. I didn't know asking him that simple question and him answering it would make me feel 10 times better. Yeah just updating you guys on it so you guys wouldn't have to worry about me c:
I love you guys so much. Thank you for making me feel better.

Thanks guys...

for making me feel better today. I guess I just really needed someone's shoulders to cry on. Even though he broke up with me thursday and we hung out on friday... in between that time, I felt so lonely. I went from feeling empty to sad to empty again. You guys are right... I do need that closure. I need him to tell me straight out if he still wants to make this work or leave entirely. One part of me is scared for the answer but the other part really wants to know where this is going to go. I don't want to be confused any longer. I still do love him though... but what did I expect? haha I mean what was the probability that we were going to be together "forever". The naive, totally-out-of-reality part of me really wanted him to be the one. But let's face it... he is my first. There might be more to come or we might just get back together again. Either way, I'm really glad you guys were here for me tonight... and for many nights to come. I would've gone mad if I stayed home thinking about it by myself. I'm really just happy you guys are here for me. And I will always be here for you guys too.