Yesterday night was fun.
I love cooking with you guys <3
We must do it more often lol.
Earlier this time so that we can stay with each other longer 8D
I looooooved all of your food guys! (:
yum yum in my tummy <3
Saturday, April 16, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Beauty
So since you guys have been writing about body image, I feel like writing about it too lol
I truly, from the bottom of my heart, feel like each and every one of you guys are one of the most beautiful girls I have ever met in my life. True, you guys are different in so many aspects (except for your weirdness)but that's what makes you guys beautiful and wonderful. I mean, I sometimes even tell Clinton how beautiful you guys are and that I'm astonished that you guys can't see it. I could go on and on about how beautiful you guys are inside and out haha. And I agree with you guys. I hate how the media perceives what a beautiful body should look like. They really make us feel shitty when we can never look like the models or celebrities that are on the front pages of magazines or in our favorite television shows or movie. I admit, like all of you, I've had some major body image issues when I was little. I really felt ugly and disgusted with myself. I hated the way my thighs looked. They never seemed perfect to me. Never slender like how a model's legs looked like. Never long like them either. I also hated the way my face looked. I hated my face shape. I looked at pictures of people with an oval face shape and I fantasized about getting plastic surgery to shape my face into an oval shape. I was so disgusted with my face when I was little that I hated looking into the mirror. I hated the face that was staring back at me. I also dreamed about getting liposuction to suck out all the fat in my thighs and my arms. I really thought that getting liposuction would make me taller because all the fat in my thighs was what was stunting my growth. And, this may seem really silly, but I also had thoughts that maybe after I was born, my mom decided to switch my legs with another baby's legs. I know, stupid right? But that's how much I wanted to change myself. I was just really disgusted with the way I looked. Haha and weight? Weight was something that was constantly on my mind. I was never happy with my weight and I still am not. Truthfully, I don't think I will ever be happy with my weight. But, I will never starve myself to get skinny. I love food too much haha. But, I have to admit. When I got really sick one time and I threw up everything I ate (when I mean everything, I mean EVERYTHING), I lost about 10 pounds in a week. I was so happy and I was thinking "wow, this really works... what if I continue this?" But, of course I didn't become bulimic. I'm glad I didn't.
But I'm better now guys. Of course there are days where I feel like the ugliest person, but I'm able to look myself in the mirror now and say "hey, you're not that bad." And just like you Emily J, I now sometimes feel pretty. It's not often, but I'm glad I have that confidence that I used to not have.
I hope for the day where we all feel good about ourselves. Where we all are happy with what we look like. Because honestly, we are not bad. Especially you guys <3
I love you guys to death. <3
I truly, from the bottom of my heart, feel like each and every one of you guys are one of the most beautiful girls I have ever met in my life. True, you guys are different in so many aspects (except for your weirdness)but that's what makes you guys beautiful and wonderful. I mean, I sometimes even tell Clinton how beautiful you guys are and that I'm astonished that you guys can't see it. I could go on and on about how beautiful you guys are inside and out haha. And I agree with you guys. I hate how the media perceives what a beautiful body should look like. They really make us feel shitty when we can never look like the models or celebrities that are on the front pages of magazines or in our favorite television shows or movie. I admit, like all of you, I've had some major body image issues when I was little. I really felt ugly and disgusted with myself. I hated the way my thighs looked. They never seemed perfect to me. Never slender like how a model's legs looked like. Never long like them either. I also hated the way my face looked. I hated my face shape. I looked at pictures of people with an oval face shape and I fantasized about getting plastic surgery to shape my face into an oval shape. I was so disgusted with my face when I was little that I hated looking into the mirror. I hated the face that was staring back at me. I also dreamed about getting liposuction to suck out all the fat in my thighs and my arms. I really thought that getting liposuction would make me taller because all the fat in my thighs was what was stunting my growth. And, this may seem really silly, but I also had thoughts that maybe after I was born, my mom decided to switch my legs with another baby's legs. I know, stupid right? But that's how much I wanted to change myself. I was just really disgusted with the way I looked. Haha and weight? Weight was something that was constantly on my mind. I was never happy with my weight and I still am not. Truthfully, I don't think I will ever be happy with my weight. But, I will never starve myself to get skinny. I love food too much haha. But, I have to admit. When I got really sick one time and I threw up everything I ate (when I mean everything, I mean EVERYTHING), I lost about 10 pounds in a week. I was so happy and I was thinking "wow, this really works... what if I continue this?" But, of course I didn't become bulimic. I'm glad I didn't.
But I'm better now guys. Of course there are days where I feel like the ugliest person, but I'm able to look myself in the mirror now and say "hey, you're not that bad." And just like you Emily J, I now sometimes feel pretty. It's not often, but I'm glad I have that confidence that I used to not have.
I hope for the day where we all feel good about ourselves. Where we all are happy with what we look like. Because honestly, we are not bad. Especially you guys <3
I love you guys to death. <3
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